Thank you all for your prayers. D died this afternoon. It’s an incredible shock as he was only 58 and up till a very short while ago, healthy. I feel desperately for his wife and (grown-up) children. I’m feeling very shocked and don’t know what else to say.
Monthly Archives: March 2005
I’ve just heard…
.. that my friend D is now on a ventilator. I don’t know what else to say, but if you are praying for him – thank you!
Please please pray…..
…for a friend of mine. He went into hospital a couple of days ago with some undiagnosed illness (possibly viral). I’ve just heard that he is now in intensive care with breathing difficulties. The doctors don’t really know what is wrong so it is very difficult for them to treat him. If you do pray and can spare a few moments, please pray for him. Thank you
News catch up
Oooh – it’s ages since I last blogged! Sorry about that. I think maybe I’ve been having a time of feeling quite low and I didn’t just want to moan-blog about stuff!!! Also I’ve been tired and busy and not going online as much as usual.
Anyway – I have 3 job applications in the pipeline at the moment – all for more money than the one where the offer got withdrawn! 
Out of these there are 2 that I’d be more interested in that the other, but we’ll just have to wait and see!
Oh – big news – I have been given an EASTER EGG! It’s the first time for years I’ve had one. My boss at the school where I work at present gave it to me with an Easter card thanking me for stepping into the job I’m doing so competently. And – even more amazingly I am holding off until tomorrow before eating it!! Given my current state of sugar/chocolate addiction that’s pretty good going.
Yesterday I went to the seaside for the day with some friends. It was good fun but I did get really tired in the afternoon! I ate loads of stuff I shouldn’t have done ( chips, candyfloss, chocolate shortbread) but you have to at the seaside really don’t you.
Today I am again tackling tidying and cleaning in the flat! It’s got really messy again over the last week or so. 
I don’t know how it does it really!!!) I also might spend some time sleeping! If sleep was really “beauty sleep” I’d be a supermodel by now!
Not very positive!
Well I did spend some money on a new duvet set – green and cream and very nice it is too! And I bought a new pair of shoes! Other than that I’ve had a bit of a strange week. I was asked to do a lot more hours at work – filling in for one reason or another. It was good to earn that bit more money, but it’s left me very tired, even though my student was a lot easier to work with (thankfully)! I’m now finding it hard to get on with things or motivate myself. I think I’m beginning to feel very insecure about the job situation. I keep dreaming very insecure dreams of varying sorts and I think that’s what it is really about.
I think this post may be turning into a bit of a “moan-fest”. I’m sorry about that! I’ll try and be more positive next time!!!
I hate entropy!
Well how else would my bedroom that I so carefully tidied and cleaned on Saturday, be looking as it is now!
I had a really difficult day yesterday. It started with an emotional counselling session followed by work being difficult. I ended up with a sinus headache that threatened to turn into a migraine plus spending the evening getting weepy and anxious (I think as back-lash from the counselling but perhaps also still reacting to the job upset).
I still have sinus problems this morning but I am having a girly day out with a friend so I am looking forward to that. We are going to a reasonably local shopping outlet mall and I am going to SPEND MONEY!
Actually I really do need new duvet covers as I’ve had my current ones for over 10 years and they have developed a lot of holes!
PS – (now we have the little flags back – Yay for Chris!!) Greetings to my reader from Slovenia!
People at my church just don’t gossip enough!
I think I am slowly recovering from the shocks and upsets of the week. I’m feeling a lot better than I was although I still have moments when I feel really upset. Actually this morning I have woken up feeling blazingly angry – Hmm, maybe I can use some of the energy thus generated to get the flat clean!
One of the hardest things to deal with about having the job offer withdrawn, is that I had actually started the job – OK, not full-time, but I’d been in for loads of briefings and had started to get various adminy things sorted. It really weird when you have started to think yourself into a job and then suddenly you aren’t doing it any more. Another hard bit has been telling everyone. It’s not that I mind them knowing, it’s just having to keep telling the story. People have been asking me “Oh – how’s the job going?” and then I have to launch into the tale all over again! Obviously people at my church just don’t gossip enough!!
In other news, my friend’s four year old has really made me laugh. In the middle of a very evanglistic church service where she was telling him to sit quietly and stop playing with his toy because they were talking to Jesus he announced very loudly “but Mummy I don’t believe in Jesus!” I mean, believing in Jesus is really annoying when you’ve got something better you want to be doing!
He’s also been informing her with great certainty when told he’s watched enough TV for the day “but Mummy, JESUS says I can watch my Scooby Doo video” And of course Mummy is always saying we need to do what Jesus tells us! Hmm bright lad that!!
Well – just speechless really!
This morning I was dragged out of bed by the postman who had an important “registered delivery before 9.00am” letter for me.
It said “I am writing to inform you that with regret, the Students’ Unioun is withdrawing the verbal offer of employment made on 18 February… blah blah etc”
No explanations, no thanks for the hours I’ve already put in (though they did send a cheque for £450).
I was actually due to go in today for another briefing session at 9.30 am. They couldn’t even wait until then to tell me face to face!
I feel really gutted. Literally as though someone has kicked me in the stomach.
I went in anyway, taking a friend with me and requested to see the manager. I wanted to find out what was really going on – I didn’t really get any further though – just some waffle about them having a rethink of what they were going to offer and restructuring the post and that they were going to readvertise but for different roles. She was very uncomfortable and defensive that I had turned up, but then again I think she should have to talk to me face to face about it so she shouldn’t have expected to get away without seeing me. I did put it to her that I wondered if this had anything to do with the Union being possibly in a difficult financial situtation (something I’d heard via a grapevine might be the case when I phoned another friend this morning). She looked rather shocked and turned very red and didn’t say anything for a few seconds so maybe it was to do with that (but if so why couldn’t she come clean about it!).
Ive been to Citizen’s Advice and apparently what they have done is perfectly legal! So back to the job search I guess! One good thing is that they hadn’t found a replacement yet for my School support worker part-time post so at least I can carry on with that while I’m looking for something full-time that pays enough to live on!
I’m feeling pretty low and tired and upset.
